I don't know the purpose of this post. Perhaps I just need to speak. Perhaps someone needs to hear this. Perhaps I just miss her.
My Mom transitioned July 13, 2005. I thought that I would handle this event better than I did. I thought that spiritually I would totally grasp the body/spirit issue. I did not.
Oh, at first, I thought that I was going to be all right. I thought that I had it sorted out, and would be fine. I was not.
She was not ill, so it came as a surprise as she was only 78 years old. But does this ever come as a surprise? I had been preparing myself for this for a few years....as each one of her birthdays came and went, I was so thankful that she was still here.
Tonight an inconsequential event occurred and my first thought was: I am calling Mom. After three and a half years I still have those nano seconds when I believe I can still do this. I can not.
But the wonderful news is...I do still feel her, hear her, feel her love surrounding me. And though I cannot actually pick up the phone, or feel her physical arms around me....I feel that soul, that maternal being. And I still tell her things, tell her that I love her, sing to her. I do not believe that she is gone, in fact at times, she feels closer than ever. I know it.
Valentines Day is approaching, and my thoughts turn to love. Unconditional love. She loved me beyond measure. "To the sky and back" she used to tell me. I love her.
I know she loves me still.
Thank you Mom. To the sky and back.
xoxo Wendy
Wendy,
ReplyDeleteThis touches me so...such a beautiful tribute to your mother; to unconditional love. All things are truly possible with love. Feeling her and sensing her now is a gift that you have received. I know that it is comforting to you and I believe that this exhilerating to your mother - that your connection remains strong.
I am certain that my mother and your mother are together in the spiritual realm, loving us beyond measure and beyond words.
Love,
Brenda
Yes my friend, beyond measure or words. This is my love for you as well. xoxo Wendy
ReplyDeleteDear Wendy,
ReplyDeleteWhat a pure entry you wrote. So lovely...so loving. Thank you for it.
I am blessed with my mother still living at 86 and yet often I do not appreciate her. It is tough to verbalize it as I feel less than I want to be when I am frustrated with her.
Yesterday while cleaning out my office I came across a bunch of cards my mom sent me over the years and photos of us together. I instantly went back to the feeling I had for her at that moment and it was beautiful. It reminded me how much I love her.
Valentine’s Day was always special with my mom. We would wake up as kids and there would be a special little gift next to our bed. I remember one year in particular when she gave us (3 girls) little fake gold rings with little hearts dangling off of it.
I know, part of my spiritual journey is the relationship between my mom and me.
I want to be a better daughter and a better person and I am working on daily.
Thank you - all of you - for being by my side giving me such great role models for reaching to be better.
Love,
Lee
Wendy,
ReplyDeleteYour mother was a very wonderful woman in her last human life. She loved me like her own son. You just do not know how much that meant to me.
I am so glad that your two souls are still connected. It is a very lovely thing that you have. Brenda also has a great connection to her mother. These are awesome gifts that the two of you have. I know how much you both appreciate them.
Happy Valentines to All!!
David